As an adult, he drifted in the polished way that wealthy men are permitted to drift, holding a position at a boutique investment firm because the founder owed my late husband a favor.
He was my only child, which made me much more patient with his lack of direction than I probably should have been over the years.
Then he married Simone, a woman who entered our lives three years before the morning Mateo called me from the city.
Simone was thirty eight then, eleven years younger than Julian, and she carried herself like a woman who believed that age was a condition that only happened to other people.
She was beautiful in a way that seemed like a calculated strategy, with smooth dark hair and a voice pitched to imply an intimacy that she never actually offered.
She had worked in luxury brand consulting and always knew which restaurants were fashionable before anyone else, ensuring she was always dressed correctly for rooms where belongings mattered.
My instincts disliked her from the beginning, but the dislike arrived as a small tightening behind my ribs rather than a loud warning I could easily explain.
During their rehearsal dinner, I watched her from across the table while a friend of Julian’s gave a toast that was more about his own cleverness than about the couple.
Everyone else looked toward the speaker, but Simone did not, as her eyes moved around the room the way eyes move when they are making a permanent record of assets.
She looked at the antique mirrors and the jewelry on the guests, and then her gaze passed over the silver-framed photograph of my late husband before landing on my own hands.
She was inventorying the estate in her mind, and when our eyes finally met, she flashed a reflexive smile used by people who have been caught looking at things they do not own.
I smiled back and realized that she had been planning her future for much longer than the duration of the wedding weekend.
I said nothing to Julian because saying something at that moment would have meant losing the argument before it even began, as he would have only heard jealousy or possessiveness.
Simone would have also learned that I noticed her behavior, and people like her become much more dangerous when they know exactly what you can see.
So I watched and adjusted quietly, moving certain financial documents out of my study and changing passwords to accounts that Julian had known about for years.