There is always the constant movement of the water which creates a sound so steady that your ears eventually stop treating it as noise and begin treating it as a rhythm inside your own body.
It comes in, pulls back, breaks, and gathers itself again without ever being hurried or apologetic about whether you have managed to sleep through the night.
I could hear gulls arguing somewhere above the dunes while the wind moved through the sea grass in thin, dry whispers that sounded like secrets being shared.
Sometimes, when the tide was exactly right, I could hear shells dragging lightly in the foam like small bones being sorted by an invisible hand along the shoreline.
It was a full and living silence, the kind of silence I had been coming to Sandpiper Point for since my husband died nine years earlier and the kind I returned to whenever the city of Charlotte became too loud with people who wanted something from me.
That morning, I had been awake for twenty minutes before Mateo called me from the security desk of my city apartment.
I had not been woken by any specific sound, but rather by the habit I had developed over the previous year of waking before dawn regardless of my intentions.
It was a particular kind of waking that I did not have in my thirties or forties, not even during the most stressful years of building my real estate consulting firm.
This was different because it felt like the body rising before the mind was ready, as if some animal part of me had heard movement in the dark and decided the safest thing was to be conscious and alert.
I was standing barefoot on the wooden deck of the house in Sandpiper Point, wearing an old linen robe and holding a mug of coffee that I had prepared entirely by myself.
That small detail mattered more than I realized at the time because the coffee was mine and the beans had been ground by my own hands while the water was poured by me into a mug taken from a cupboard only I had opened.
No one had brought the drink to me or stirred anything into it, and no one had handed it over with a rehearsed smile while watching to see whether I actually drank it.
I had been watching the light change over the gray water, which happens slowly and then suddenly as the horizon becomes a color that the English language does not name properly.