“Open this door right now, Joanna,” she screamed while she hit the wood with her fist. I opened the door just a few inches and looked at her with a neutral expression that seemed to make her even angrier.
“The bank just called me and told me that my mortgage payment bounced because the account is empty,” she sobbed. I told her that she should have thought about her mortgage before she taught her son to treat me like a servant.
“He is just a little boy who made a mistake,” she cried. I pointed out that he was a boy who was repeating the things he had heard his mother say when he thought I wasn’t listening.
“You are going to let my children lose their home because of a joke at dinner?” she asked in a voice that was full of disbelief. I told her that I was simply ending a gift that had never been appreciated in the first place.
“I am not the one who put your house at risk, Sienna,” I said. “You did that the moment you decided that your lifestyle was more important than your sister’s dignity.”
She called me a heartless bitch and told me that I would die alone in my expensive apartment with nobody to love me. I closed the door and locked it while she continued to scream insults at me from the hallway.
My mother called me later that afternoon and used her softest voice to try and convince me to change my mind. “We are family, Joanna, and family members do not do things like this to one another,” she whispered into the phone.
“Family members also do not laugh when one of their own is being humiliated by a child,” I reminded her. She told me that I was being dramatic and that I had always been the most difficult child to understand.
“You were always so self-sufficient that we didn’t think you needed the same kind of warmth as the others,” she said. I realized then that they had used my strength as an excuse to deny me the very things that make a family a home.
I spent the next few days blocking numbers and ignoring emails from various relatives who were suddenly very concerned about my mental health. Paige was the only one who sent a message that didn’t feel like a disguised demand for money.
“I am so sorry for laughing at that table, Jo,” she wrote. “I was a coward and I hate that I didn’t stand up for you when you needed it.”