It was not a restful sleep but rather the deep and merciful kind that only arrives after a week has drained every bit of your energy.
At sixty three years old, I no longer slept with the ease of a younger man because my rest came in cautious pieces like a stray cat that might flee at the slightest movement.
I could be exhausted beyond any words and still wake up at the simple tick of the thermostat or the distant bark of a dog two streets away.
That night, I had finally managed to fall into a heavy slumber before the phone glowed white against the blackness of my bedroom in Tallahassee.
Before my mind truly understood what was happening, my body was already bracing for the arrival of terrible news.
Thirty one years as a family attorney had trained me to fear late night calls because experience taught me that nothing ordinary arrives after midnight.
A call at two in the morning is rarely about a birthday or a funny story, as it usually involves a hospital, a jail, or a child in danger.
I reached for my glasses with my left hand and accidentally knocked over the paperback book I had been trying to finish for three weeks.
The book hit the hardwood floor with a dull thud while my hand found the vibrating phone by touch alone.
My eyes struggled to focus on the bright screen until the name Daisy finally became clear to me.
She was my granddaughter, and I answered the call before it could even reach the second ring.
“Daisy, sweetheart, please tell me what is wrong,” I said with my heart racing in my chest.
At first, nothing came back through the line except the sound of heavy and ragged breathing.
It was not sobbing or words but just a thin and broken breathing that seemed to come from somewhere deep behind her ribs.
I sat up in bed and told her that I was right there with her and that she should talk to me.
“Grandpa,” she whispered in a voice so small that it hardly seemed strong enough to cross the distance between us.
That single word landed in my chest with the full weight of every promise I had ever made to her.
“I am here, so please tell me exactly what happened tonight,” I urged while my feet touched the cold floor.
She took a shaking breath and told me that they had left her all alone in the house.
For a second I thought I had misheard her because sleep and panic can twist words into the wrong shapes.