Seeing her expression, I realized something was wrong and pushed her aside to go straight to the doctor's office.
The doctor had wanted me to notify my family, but when I told him that I couldn't reach them, he sighed and told me that there was something in my brain. But there was nothing to worry about. Further tests would be done and if it was benign, the surgery would have a high success rate.
I asked the doctor how much the surgery would cost, and he said it wouldn't be much. 60,000 to 70,000 dollars would be enough after all the expenses were added up and reimbursed.
Listening to the doctor's words, my mood was like riding a roller coaster, and now it has finally settled a bit.
I thanked the doctor, then came out to call my mom to explain the situation. After a few days, the call finally went through. I thought that my mom would be worried about me, come to take care of me, and reassure me.
But, my mom didn't even wait for me to finish speaking before interrupting me impatiently, "Nico, are you jealous of me buying a house for your brother?"
"You're such a wicked-minded girl, willing to curse yourself just to ask me for money."
"I don't have any money. I spent all my money on buying a house for your brother!"
"I don't have money to cure you! You deserve to die."
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Although I knew that my parents had some traditional thoughts favoring sons over daughters, I never expected my own mother to say such malicious words to me.
When I was very young, I didn't realize that my parents were biased.
I remembered that my family had always been poor, so my brother and I didn't seem to get much extra favor in material things compared to me. Although life was difficult at that time, I felt that my parents loved me and my brother equally.
When I was a child, I always wore shabby clothes and was teased. My mom told me not to compare myself with others in terms of food and clothing, but to compare myself with them in terms of studying.
I took this sentence to heart at a young age and studied particularly hard, so I was always at the top of the class from childhood.
But when my parents talked about me to others, they always said, "A girl having good grades when she is young is useless. She can only study hard, but won't be able to do anything in the future. Unlike her brother, he is smart. Although he is not good at studying now, he will be able to achieve great things in the future."