When I reached the cabinets, my hands were slipping from sweat. I fumbled at the drawer handle twice before I got it open. Utensils rattled softly. Aluminum foil. Dead batteries. A broken whisk. The can opener gleamed dull silver in the moonlight coming through the small transom window above the back door.
I gripped it and looked up at that window.
Tiny. Old. Painted shut years ago and partly nailed.
Not impossible.
I used the can opener’s point like a pry bar, working at the softened wood around the frame, pulling one nail, then another. It took forever. Or maybe six minutes. Pain makes time fraudulent. My fingers split. I dropped the can opener twice. Each clang sounded to me like an alarm, but nobody came.
When the frame finally gave with a soft pop, cold night air spilled over my face.
The window was too small for comfort and too high for dignity, but terror is a remarkable engineer.
I hauled myself up with both arms, pushed my shoulders through, twisted sideways, and dragged my body across the sill. My broken leg caught and I nearly screamed loud enough to wake the dead. Then I was over, falling gracelessly into the wet backyard grass.
For a long moment I lay there gasping, cheek pressed into dirt, the stars spinning above me.
I had no phone. No wallet. No shoes. No coat. No identification. Nothing except a broken leg, a rusted can opener still clenched in one hand, and the knowledge that I was outside the Miller house.
Free and not yet safe are not the same thing, but they are cousins.
The nearest lit porch belonged to a widow named Mrs. Peterson who lived next door and had once tried to make conversation with me over the fence before Susan called me inside as if I were a child wandering off.
Thirty feet separated me from that porch.
It might as well have been thirty miles.
I started crawling.
Gravel bit my knees. Damp grass soaked my pajama pants. The broken leg dragged a crooked path behind me through the dew. More than once I thought I heard a door open and froze, but the house behind me remained still.
When I reached Mrs. Peterson’s back steps, I had nothing left except the ability to pound once, twice, three times against the screen door.
A porch light snapped on.
The door opened.
And the last thing I saw before the world went dark was an old woman in a flowered robe covering her mouth with both hands and whispering, “Dear God. Those people finally did it.”