I didn’t bother packing a bag. I ran to the adjacent bathroom, soaked a hand towel in cold water, and wrapped it around her burning neck. I scooped her up. She weighed practically nothing, a fragile collection of bones and unimaginable grief.
I carried her down the stairs, kicking the front door shut behind me. The neighbor’s curtain twitched across the street. Someone was watching, a silent suburban spectator who had likely been told not to intervene. I didn’t care. My only objective was keeping the child in my arms tethered to the living.
I laid her gently in the backseat of my sedan, but as I buckled the seatbelt, Maya’s body suddenly went rigid. Her jaw locked, her back arched unnaturally, and her eyes rolled completely white. She was having a febrile seizure, right there in the dark driveway, and the nearest hospital was still twelve agonizing miles away.
I have never driven with such reckless, calculated desperation. The journey to the North Georgia Medical Center was a blur of running red lights and leaning on the horn, my eyes darting between the road and the rearview mirror where Maya was convulsing violently.
I slammed the car into park at the emergency bay, kicking the door open and carrying her into the harsh fluorescent light of the ER. “I need help!” I bellowed, my voice echoing off the linoleum. “She’s seizing! She’s burning up!”
Nurses descended upon us like a synchronized strike team. They took her from my arms, rushing her onto a gurney and disappearing behind a set of double doors.
I collapsed into a hard plastic chair in the waiting room, my hands trembling violently. I looked down at my palms. They were slick with my granddaughter’s sweat. For the first time in thirty years, I closed my eyes and prayed to a God I wasn’t entirely sure I believed in anymore.
An hour passed. Then two. The waiting room smelled of antiseptic and stale coffee, a sterile purgatory. Finally, a doctor in blue scrubs approached me, his face a mask of exhausted, professional fury.
“Mr. Collins?” Dr. Aris asked. “I’m the attending physician.”
“How is she?”