Lucy eventually fell asleep, but not deeply. Every so often her breathing hitched, like her body was still waiting for the moment it would realize no one was coming. I watched her chest rise and fall and felt that specific parental madness settle in— not wild, not reckless, but surgical. The kind that makes you capable of decisions you didn’t think you could make.
My phone lay on the nightstand. Silent.
No message from my mother. No message from my father. No message from Amanda asking if Lucy was okay. No attempt to apologize. No frantic “we didn’t know” or “we’re coming over.”
That absence was loud.
The next morning, the heatwave continued like nothing had happened. The sun rose bright and cruel. Birds chirped. The world acted normal, which felt obscene.
Lucy sat on the couch wrapped in a blanket like a burrito who had been through something. She stared at cartoons without laughing, thumb in her mouth for the first time since she was three. Chris hovered near her like a guard dog.
My phone rang. Unknown number again.
Officer Miller’s voice was the same as before. “Ms. Walker, we need to schedule a formal statement. Either later today or tomorrow.”
“Tomorrow,” I said immediately. I needed time. I needed to gather myself. I needed to make sure I wasn’t walking into a room where my family could twist the narrative before I knew which direction was up.
“All right,” he said. “We’ll confirm a time.”
After I hung up, I stood in the kitchen staring at the counter as if it contained instructions for what people do next. Drink water. Breathe. Scream. Cry. Instead, I made toast. Lucy didn’t eat any of it.
Then, finally, my phone rang again.
Mom.
I watched the name on the screen for a long moment. A younger version of me would’ve answered immediately, heart racing with hope that this would be the call where she said, Oh my God, Anna, I’m so sorry. Are you okay? Is Lucy okay? We made a terrible mistake.
I answered anyway, because hope is stubborn even when you know better.
“Hi, sweetheart,” my mother said, voice soft and syrupy. “How’s Lucy doing?”
There it was: the performance voice. The one she used when she wanted to sound like the kind of mother people approve of.
“She’s shaken,” I said. “But she’s okay.”
“Oh, thank God,” my mother breathed. “See, she’s fine.” A beat. “I told your father you’d call the police over nothing.”