I didn’t open it immediately because I already knew who it was from based on the weight of the paper alone. I wiped my hands on my jeans and leaned back against the fence post as Duke put his head against my thigh in a show of unspoken loyalty.
“I guess it’s time, Duke,” I said softly.
The dog didn’t answer, but he stayed leaning against me as I finally broke the seal on the official documents.
The letter was brief and clinical, identifying the petitioner as Franklin Garrison and the respondent as Samantha Garrison. My father was suing me, though not for money, which would have been much easier to explain and resist.
He was suing for exclusive authority over the Garrison family estate, alleging that my absence constituted abandonment and irresponsibility. He claimed he was acting to preserve the public integrity of the name, and then he included the phrase that made me laugh out loud.
Conduct unbecoming.
“Conduct unbecoming,” I repeated to the empty yard.
Duke lifted his head at the sound of my voice.
“It’s fine, boy,” I told him, “we’ve been called much worse things in much worse places.”
I folded the letter carefully that night but couldn’t bring myself to sleep.
I sat at the kitchen table with a mug of coffee that went cold as I listened to the fridge humming and the floorboards settling. I thought about calling a lawyer or an old colleague, but every phone number came with the heavy price of having to explain myself.
I was tired of explaining, so I didn’t call anyone.
Instead, I walked into the bedroom after midnight and opened the old footlocker at the foot of my bed. The hinges complained softly as I reached inside to touch the dress uniform folded in tissue paper and the medals wrapped in velvet.
I ran my fingers over the fabric and realized that people often forget how much life can be sewn into a simple piece of cloth. It isn’t heavy when you hold it in your hands, but it becomes very heavy when you actually have to carry it.
I closed the trunk and decided right then that if this was going to happen, it would happen on the strength of the truth alone.
The drive to the courthouse took forty-five minutes, which was long enough for doubt to do what it always does when it senses an opening.
“You should have hired someone,” a voice in my head whispered.
“He’s going to win because he knows how to play this game,” another thought followed.