Rebecca looked near tears.
“I’m so sorry, Grandma.”
“You have nothing to apologize for.”
She stared at me for a moment, then at the bank envelope on the table.
“Dad said the mortgage payment bounced this morning,” she said quietly. “He’s been calling everybody.”
“It didn’t bounce,” I said. “I stopped paying it.”
Her eyes widened.
“All of it?”
“All of it.”
For the first time since she came in, something like surprise flickered through her grief.
“You actually did it.”
“I did.”
She sat down hard.
Good for you was what her face said. I know because I saw it there before she hid it.
What came out of her mouth was more careful.
“Are you okay?”
I set the kettle on the stove.
“I think I am,” I said. “I think I may be better than I’ve been in a long time.”
She watched me fill the teapot.
“Dad is panicking,” she said. “Mom too.”
I nodded.
“They’ll survive.”
Rebecca gave a little exhale that might have been a laugh if the day had been different.
“You know,” she said, “I’ve been waiting years for somebody to tell them no.”
That stopped me.
I turned and looked at her fully.
“You saw it?”
“Grandma.” She gave me a look that was too old for her face. “Everybody saw it.”
I set two cups on the table.
That hurt. Not because she was wrong, but because she was right and I had forced an entire younger generation to watch me ignore it.
We had tea together. When she left, she hugged me longer than usual.
At the door she hesitated.
“I’m not choosing sides,” she said. “They’re still my parents.”
“You don’t have to choose sides,” I told her. “Just keep your own soul clean.”
She nodded and kissed my cheek.
That evening Lorine Campbell arrived carrying a basket with homemade blackberry jam, a sleeve of crackers, and the kind of expression best friends wear when they already know something is wrong and have come prepared to stay.
Lorine and I had been friends since the years when our husbands were both still alive and our children still needed us every hour. She had sat next to me in hospital waiting rooms, church funeral lunches, school gymnasiums, and one humiliating PTA meeting back in 1989 when Garrett got suspended for mouthing off to a teacher he later admitted deserved it. She was blunt where I was diplomatic, suspicious where I was trusting, and fiercely loyal in a way that often sounded rude until you needed it.
She hugged me once, took one look at my face, and said, “All right. Tell me.”
So I did.