Different door colors, different landscaping choices.

When I reached my old address, I stopped across the street.

Someone had painted the front door a deep red. The porch had new furniture—a pair of wicker chairs with bright cushions and a small table between them. A child’s scooter leaned against the railing.

In the yard, under the oak tree, a little boy in a striped shirt was jumping into a pile of leaves while a man raked them higher.

“Again!” the boy shouted.

The man laughed, tossed another armload of leaves onto the pile.

Paul had done that with Caleb once.

Once upon a time, I thought those kinds of memories were tied to the house—that if I let go of the building, I’d lose the stories.

Standing there on the sidewalk, I realized I’d been wrong about that, too.

The memories lived in me.

Not in drywall and trim.

I watched for another minute as the boy threw himself into the leaves, leaves flew up, shrieks of laughter cut through the street.

Then I turned and walked away.

No one looked out the window.

No one saw me.

That felt right.

—

Caleb called once more that winter.

Blocked number, but his voice came through before I could hang up.

“Mom,” he said. “We had the baby.”