I thought about every memory of Billy I had: his easy laugh, and the way he’d told me once that I had beautiful eyes that reminded him of someone, without knowing what he was really saying. I recalled the way Grandma’s hands would go still whenever he was in the room.
“He’s my father. And he has no idea.”
It had never been discomfort. It had been the weight of knowing something she couldn’t say.
“Yes,” I told Tyler. “I need to see him.”
***
We drove there the following afternoon.
Billy opened the door with the grin he always had, wide, unguarded, and genuinely happy to see me. His wife, Diane, called out, ” Hello! ” from the kitchen. His two daughters were somewhere upstairs, music drifting down.
The house was full of family photographs. Vacations and Christmases, and ordinary Saturday afternoons. A whole life assembled and displayed along every wall.
I had the letter in my bag. I’d planned exactly what I was going to say.
“I need to see him.”
“Catherine!” Billy pulled me into a hug. “I’ve been thinking about you since the funeral. Your grandmother would’ve been so proud. Come in, come in. Diane! Catherine’s here!”
We sat in the living room. Diane brought coffee, and one of his daughters came down to say hi. The whole scene was so warm, ordinary, and complete that something inside me locked up entirely.
Then Billy looked at me with soft eyes and said, “Your grandmother was the finest woman I’ve ever known. She kept this whole family together.”
The words went through me like a current.
“Your grandmother would’ve been so proud.”
Billy meant it. He had no idea how true it was, or what it had cost Grandma Rose, or what she’d carried on behalf of every person in that room. I opened my mouth. But I paused.
Instead, I said, “I’m glad you’re coming to the wedding. It would mean everything to me. Uncle Billy, would you walk me down the aisle?”
His face crumpled in the best way. He pressed his hand to his chest as if I’d just handed him something he hadn’t expected to receive.
“I would be honored, dear,” he said, his voice gone rough. “Absolutely honored.”
“Thank you, Da—” I paused, quickly recovering. “Uncle Billy.”
“Uncle Billy, would you walk me down the aisle?”
***