“Do you hear what has happened to your language?” I asked. “What does that make me? Inactive inventory?”
“That’s not what I meant.”
“No, it’s exactly what you meant. You just wanted it to sound administrative instead of cruel.”
For a moment we simply looked at each other across the kitchen table where he had once helped me with math homework, shown me how to shuffle cards, taught me to cut a grapefruit cleanly with a small serrated knife. That was the treachery of fathers, I thought. Even bad disappointments are built on top of real tenderness. Otherwise leaving would be simple.
At last he said, “What do you want from me?”
The question might once have softened me. That morning it only clarified things.
“I want the truth,” I said. “Did you and Diana try to sell this house?”
He did not answer.
Evelyn leaned back in her chair. “Thomas.”
He looked at me instead. “There was discussion.”
“Of course there was.”
“Madeline’s graduate program is expensive.”
I laughed in disbelief. “So you were going to sell my mother’s house to fund Diana’s daughter’s life.”
“It is not that simple.”
“It is exactly that simple.”
He shook his head. “You have your job in Boston. Your apartment. You’re never here.”
The sentence was almost worse than the rest because of how ordinary it was. How familiar. The logic of dispossession dressed up as practicality.
“You decided distance meant abandonment,” I said. “That’s on you.”
He leaned forward then, suddenly intense. “You don’t understand what it has been like with Diana these past few years. The pressure. The fights. She insisted the house was wasted sitting in a trust while you drifted farther away.”
“And what did you say?”
His silence answered again.
“I said we should talk to you,” he muttered finally.
“Did you?”
“No.”
Because that would have required conflict before theft. Better to skip the difficult conversation and see if the quieter daughter simply let herself be erased.
I stood.
The movement startled all three of us, I think. I hadn’t planned it. But something in me knew the chair had become too small for what needed saying.